Miniature Disasters

spent 7weeks back home and i'll be leaving tomorrow. time does fly (:

i feel like i'm sort of dreading it though. but so damn excited at the same time!

xx

I guess I really need to rant, and writing's the only way I know how. I've concluded that after every peak there will always come a pit, happened to me today and I really don't like it. It's really getting the better of me and it sucks.

peak: I finally got into vet at usyd and it's an awesome feeling that i've actually achieved something. Especially after 2 years of struggling through JC, taking a year off and then slogging my ass off at Taylors. Finally.

pit: I don't know how to express myself. I'm getting pretty scared thinking about the future, maybe it was the drinks. I was pretty sure I knew what I wanted to say, yet it didn't come out right.

I don't think I'd ever want to be that happy ever again, just happy will do. Save me from the pit. The future scares me so much, even more than dying. At least I'm curious are dying, but the future remains ever so elusive.

gnight world

I had a pretty refreshing day today, relatively at least (: ever since Andre left, i have to get myself back into the stride of things. So it's been studying, running and grocery shopping. I'm almost there. Ran everyday since, and went to USyd today to sit in on a Law tutorial/lecture on Legal Drafting. It was interesting, especially the grammar and the sense of it all. Made me actually realize how much I miss writing and that Bachelor of Arts (Media and Communication)/Bachelor of Laws may actually be a very real option to me. It's 6years and really tough though, not leaving out the fact that Vet is already going to be very tough. Hrmm. Options options options. It's ironic that I had none a little over a year ago and now I actually have plenty. Funny how things turn out, really. Life's unfolding oddly but surely. So the legal drafting class was followed by lunch at Manning House! Great food, I must say. The works burger looked scrumptious and my fish and chips was well nice (: Went back to UniLodge to study with nick..

Omg! The movie to watch right now is Wall Street starring Shia LaBeouf. It was a really really interesting show, but I have to admit that I was lost half the time trying to keep up with all the economic jargon and I wasn't able to laugh at the jokes cause I completely didn't get it. Ah well, I definitely won't be an economist or work in the financial sector but new things learnt I suppose? (: I definitely want to watch it again though. Try to catch the things I missed.

Odd, tummy's grumbling. Plus, it's 2am already so I really should be sleeping. Opera House run tomorrow. another 6km. 

Gnight World!

PS I HAD PEANUT BUTTER AND CHUNKY MONKEY BEN AND JERRY'S ICE CREAM JUST NOW AND IT WAS MEGA AWESOME (:

So near yet so far.

So I had to ask the obvious question, but I needed the straight answer/. I got it, I guess. Absolutely not the one that I was looking for but it's still an answer. The idea of staying in a relationship for the next 5 years without actually being physically together is scaring the shit out of me. I guess I did sign up for this once I decided to come to Sydney. I'm not sure what I'm supposed to do now. I mean sure we can fly to each other, but how often? There's only so much time we can actually spend together without anything getting in our way. I have to admit I quite expected that answer, but at the same time it tore down my walls. I can't help but wonder how everything is going to work out, but quite exactly. I'll have to wait another 4 more weeks to see him, it's just a matter of time.

Exams start on Tuesday and I have the attention span of a goldfish. I <3 my lappy too much to leave it unattended. Bejewelled's a super stress reliever and the amount I play is frightening, really/. It's practically my daily dose of prozac. Ha. Take it away and I turn into the hulk. Okay, I shall attempt my second cycle at being a goldfish now. 

The sun'll come out tomorrow,
Betcha bottom dollar that tomorrow,
There'll be sun
Just thinking about tomorrow,
Clears away the cobwebs and the sorrow
Til there's none.
When I'm stuck with a day that's gray and lonely
i just stick out my chin and grin and say:
The sun'll come out tomorrow
So you gotta hang on til tomorrow
Come what may.

where's my soldier boy?

OMG I LOVE YOU PINK.

there's something missing.

"This is what a million people look like. you may catch a minute of in on CNN, somewhere inbetween sports and Leno."
-Tassin Camp, Blood Diamond.

okay omg i'm such a youtube whore right now but i have to share again! (:






oh a little insight to this vid, the old man who appeared at the end of the film was one of the caretakers of the wild animals in the reserve and he was shot dead by poachers. )):

aaand.. THANKS MICHELLE FOR THE VIDS! =D

ENJOY!