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So much for a new years' resolution - I WILL NOT PROCRASTINATE. I guess there are just some habits that you can never seem to break, huh? It just seems absolutely impossible. I've been meaning to write an entry for the longest time, but then again I never end up being able to cause of heaps upon heaps of stuff to do are just piling up. Today's different, I have no paper tomorrow. Math was a total disaster this morning and I went grocery shopping with Mummy just now. I had my first bite of ice cream, Ben And Jerry's, in ages and cookie dough has never tasted so good.
Friday marks the end of CTs and Saturday marks the start of 6day trip to Ipoh with the volleyballers and basketballers. That's pretty much the only thing I can look forward to right now. CTs has been an absolute terror and the papers can kiss my sorry ass cause I'm going to flunk every single one of them. (Okay, maybe not for GP... But then again, I did write a totally nonsense essay regarding something I have no clue about and I didn't finish my AQ. Not to mention that my summary was crap.)
Here's my predicament for the CTs:
GP: D
Geog: E
Chem: S
Math: U
Bio: U
It's highly possible that I will get U for every subject. I wonder what might happen if that actually happens, really. And gosh, my math is getting from bad to worse. ): Scoring straight A's is fashionable, or so says the Tutor. Being fashionable is one thing but being able to actually get it done is another entire different thing. If I actually manage to get through with JC, it's a fucking accomplishment - an accomplishment that seems to be just a line that sneaks its existance onto this entry and with no hope of becoming reality. This is the equivalent of actually wasting two entire years of my life, rapidly depleting my brain cells and consequently diminishing every strand of ever wanting to study every again.
Take me to the beach, where I only hear the sound of waves creeping up the shores and back, leaving mere bubbles behind as evidence that they were ever there. Take me to the beach, where I can feel the wind rushing through my hair, igniting my sense of freedom once again. Take me to the beach.
none, whatsoever.
i hate today.
Having barely consolation for trying, i shall not be upset. I mean, what's the point right? Sooner or later you'll just end up being smacked right down again.
It's. Not. Fucking. Working.
I wish that I could breathe, a moment just to be. A chance to take it in, before I have to leave.
So this is how it feels, to walk into a daydream. Can't tell you how my heart says to see it all for real.
I always said, when i get there, i'll change the world, i'll take more care.
I'll touch the sky, be more prepared, when I get there.
Paul Van Dyke's ten commandments:
1. Choose life, not drugs.
2. Smile.
3. Give someone a hug or make someone laugh.
4. Don't be afraid to say "I love you".
5. Always put family first.
6. Never let fame get you.
7. Climb a mountain.
8. Do one good deed a day.
9. Play to 20000 people at an outdoor music festival.
10. Eat an apple a day.